Beta Rage

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pc0mxOXbWIU

Forget that bitch or whore who cheated on you or broke your heart, just move on, the more you let it affect you, the longer you will be alone.. I listened to this and it expressed all the anger and frustration I have all felt over losing the girl I love and then seeing her all over with some new douche. What the video shows us is that if we work hard and ignore all the bullshit caused by stupid bitches, then we will overcome in the end. And if you can't overcome, keep going and just be happy with yourself. There is no better revenge than living well.

Depersonalization Disorder

I have panic attacks but a very rational thought process. Most of the time I find myself just saying or doing things with the appearance that I have little regard for anything. Is it weird that I feel like a lot of people could possibly have this but probably just don't know the name for it? It's not a very well known thing. I've been trying to find a name for this and I think I have it as well.

Shall I congratulate myself as I have discovered reflective and reflexive thought? It's normal to a degree and only becomes pathological if you perceive it as making you suffer. Maybe I also have the other one which is Derealization. I'm kinda used to it now though. But it still sucks. I know I'm alright, but that does'nt take away the terrible feeling. It also doesn't help that there's technically no cure for it, just ways to make it less intense.