Trying to do better than the day before

Music is definitely a driving force. Everyone definitely needs to find something like it. It's a good, simple life I live. Wake up, play music and watch TV until the show that night. I just wish that more people could respect me for what I do, instead of seeing it as me "doing the easy road".

Most people think it was easy to get where I am, but it was a long hard road. I spend hours writing, months a year studying. It is just a different kind of job, and no one respects it.That's the thing, the only thing I'm looking forward to is perfecting myself and not caring about my ex. I guess it branches out to getting more into parkour, getting stronger, becoming independent, no more anxiety, getting shit faced with a good friend from highschool days and maybe one day finding someone I could love, like, care about. As of late I just  can't put effort into other people, whenever I think about doing anything intimate it makes me feel sick to my stomach, I guess I just need to get better. Like I think being intimate with someone else would help my butt sadness in regards to my ex, but I think I'd vomit on the girl.

Yeah... I remember for the longest time, the idea of being with someone else made me feel physically sick. I promise it does get easier though, but I'm not going to lie, it almost killed me. But after 5 months I think I'm almost ready to move on. I mean that would mean being with a girl, which is a laugh in itself considering that I'd be the only consenting party, but whatever. It can get better with time. Being outgoing, for some people, is all about the first step. That may not be applicable to me, but usually the thought of something is a lot more daunting than the actual activity itself. Then again, sometimes it isn't.
 
Uncomfortable truth:

1. Realize most people only use friends until their career and marital relationship are in place. they then ditch their old friends and make friends with other married people.
2. Women in their 20's only have so long before their market value plummets, so most just go for what they can. I'd suggest setting up a bunch of rules of behavior that you will and will not accept from a female. If you're attractive, you will need to set this up or you'll end up settling for less than 1st place.

I think about how disappointing it is that I don't have time to work on any of my personal projects anymore. Fucking work. I think that would be awesome to have that sort of passion for something. Some drive and desire to get good at something. Another language, reading, art, music. Fuck I wish I was interesting.

When you wake up, the start of your day, what do you think about?
What are you looking forward to? What keeps you going?

Sucks to be you Bea-to-ri-cee: Magic doesn't exist

As I am getting older I also begin to see how silly twenty-somethings are; in fact its annoying because when I see them I see what I used to be, a pseudo-intellectual puffed up little pup who thinks they knew about the world just by reading a lot of news. Twenty-something agnostics are also very annoying, this was me as well, until I grew up a heart, brain, and a dick.

I've seen some idiots in my college who are anti-Israel and think they'll actually accomplish anything. The members are very full of themselves and think they know the solution to everything which they don't, one wants to implement direct democracy but doesn't realise how incredibly difficult that would be in practice. In my last year of college. The other people in my course are so diabolically stupid, even after 4 years of doing this shit, it's sapped my will to do the work and go to classes, because I figure, if they can get a degree, anyone can, what's the goddamn point?

Atheists know they dont know everything and without proof they will not just accept an idea as valid. Making claims about how everything came to be without any evidence is the game of religion. Atheists having 100% knowledge there is no god is a statement religious people and agnostic kids convince themselves of. Even Dawkins states that he doesnt have 100% knowledge the there is no god. The point to being an atheist is to demand proof for a claim, and if proof is not given, there is no reason to accept it. God is just as much mythological as any other creature ever made up by man, he deserves no exception, after all 99.9% of all the Gods that have ever supposedly existed are now extinct. We are all non believers in them, atheists just take it one god further

We have no reason to give unicorns the benefit of the doubt as we know that we created them through mythology and shit. We don't know why humans exist, we don't know why life exists but it does. Atheism does not answer all the questions, and if you think it does, there is no way you know for sure.

Its about burden of proof, if there is no evidence there is no reason to believe. I am sure we are both atheists about those unicorns and fairies, but there is just as much evidence for them as there is for god. I dont know if there is or isnt a god, but from all the evidence, it sure seems like there is no compelling case for one therefore I do not believe. If you are agnostic about God then you must be agnostic about everything else in the world that a person might claim to exist regardless of facts