I Don’t Want To Wait

So open up your morning light, And say a little prayer for I. You know that if we are to stay alive. Then see the peace in every eye.

She had two babies. One was six months, one was three In the war of '44. Every telephone ring, every heartbeat stinging When she thought it was God calling her. Oh would her son grow to know his father?

I don't want to wait for our lives to be over, I want to know right now what will it be. I don't want to wait for our lives to be over, Will it be yes or will it be...sorry?

He showed up all wet on the rainy front step. Wearing shrapnel in his skin. And the war he saw lives inside him still, It's so hard to be gentle and warm. The years pass by and now he has granddaughters

I don't want to wait for our lives to be over, I want to know right now what will it be. I don't want to wait for our lives to be over, Will it be yes or will it be

Oh,So breathe a little more deeply All we have is this very moment And I don't want to do what his father, And his father, and his father did, I want to be here now.

So open up your morning light, And say a little prayer for I You know that if we are to stay alive, Then see the peace in every eye.

I don't want to wait for our lives to be over, I want to know right now what will it be. I don't want to wait for our lives to be over, Will it be yes or will it be

I don't want to wait for our lives to be over, I want to know right now what will it be. I don't want to wait for our lives to be over, Will it be yes or will it be...sorry?

So open up your morning light, And say a little prayer for I You know that if we are to stay alive, Then see the love in every eye.

Songwriter: Paula Cole

Class Actress - Journal of Ardency

Beta Rage

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pc0mxOXbWIU

Forget that bitch or whore who cheated on you or broke your heart, just move on, the more you let it affect you, the longer you will be alone.. I listened to this and it expressed all the anger and frustration I have all felt over losing the girl I love and then seeing her all over with some new douche. What the video shows us is that if we work hard and ignore all the bullshit caused by stupid bitches, then we will overcome in the end. And if you can't overcome, keep going and just be happy with yourself. There is no better revenge than living well.

My taste in music is just too sick for females to comprehend (part 2)

Natural selection does happen. It is now common for girl in the city to have 7 children from 5 different men by their mid twenties. The environment completely supports this irresponsible lifestyle and many people are actively taking advantage of this. Some people are rising above traditional roles and values because they are realizing that there is more to things than pure survival these days. Modern technology makes every body able to live a decent life with little to no effort, women don't need a big hulk to protect their brood, they may enjoy fulfilling their genetic prerogatives by having a manly father for their children but more and more other social factors are coming into play, such as fashion sense and wealth.

About nerdy women, guys talking about their ideal woman as shy and quiet, that it cannot be a coincidence; I would say the majority of men want a woman who is generally of their own mindset, so that they can relate to them better. Pretty logical, let's continue down this train of thought.. The fact that some men require a girl be into video games and hardly ever put any other requirements - it's never like passionate about life or oves to ride roller coasters or something like that - leads me to believe that they don't put anything else that the girl needs to relate to simply because they don't have anything else themselves that they can relate to.

On to second bit about the gender steryeotypes (something I'm sure I do every time a girl says hi and smiles at me) manages to completely miss the mark of what I was saying - so out of the kindness of my heart; typically, being a man or manning up has the connotation of being tough, headstrong, independant, etc - an alternative and less gender specific example would be for me to toughen up.

I am posting this entry because of the first part; it seemed to fit with the whole mantra of manning up and acting rationally (get out, go do something else, stop acting like a wuss) when the girl doesn't immediately leap at me. I do have guidelines; stop bitching, stop blaming the world and everyone else (parents, friends, life in general) for my problems, and start trying to fix them. Or stay in my room and cry myself to sleep as I slip deeper and deeper into a bitter rage at all that I could never attain.

My taste in music is just too sick for females to comprehend (part 1)

I suppose that I am in part referring to gender roles. Human are animals (though I can't say much from religious perspective) and like animals male and female fulfill different roles. The average Joe doesn't want a girlfriend that doesn't shave and acts manlier than him. Likewise why would any woman want to be dating a effeminate man? That shit doesn't fly with natural selection.

A guy could be fucking obsessed with some girl and she could only just know of him. This could be something worth considering when he think he is being ignored. It's not like one would go out of his way to talk to some behind the scenes person at a cafe or supermarket is it? It's not like we are on an even footing either.

The thing is, people like me require their girls to like anime and or video games because there is literally so little else in ourlives that they have nothing else going for us; it is my sole interest, passion, hobby, and activity outside of whatever necessities I absolutely have to do to survive. So when a girl comes along who isn't similarly into video games, I have absolutely nothing to relate with them about, or even talk to them about for any extended period of time.

It is reasonable, and it is logical. Most guys look for a woman that they can relate to or have a decent conversation with - and if they're looking for a long term relationship, the base instinct is to find someone who is like themselves and thus, easy to get along with. If they share the same interests, then it's assured you will have something to do/ talk about/ share with each other for quite some time.

Run Devil Run

Ke$ha - Run Devil Run

SNSD - Run Devil Run

Story behind:
The song was composed internationally by Busbee of USA, Alex James of UK, and Kalle Engstrom of Sweden. Ke$ha has recorded a guide version before her debut because of her close relationship with one of the composers. Guided versions are recorded songs (usually by a different artist or non-artist) to help in sound recording, with usually no intentions of official releases by the recorder. Ke$ha's guided version was leaked onto Youtube and action was taken to delete them, but some still remain. SNSD is considered the official artist of the song, "Run Devil Run".

Urge to pick up the guitar again

Afgan - Pencari jalanMu

A somewhat religious song about people who have changed their way of life for better. I like the wall and white papers analogy. I was moved by these people featured on the video clip.

• Andhu. M, ex thug, now milk deliverer.
• Ferry. G, ex transsexual prostitute, now pastry maker
• Fajar. B, ex drug addicts, teacher of the Koran

Back into the computer room

A Father's Gift - Frank Stallone

Now hush my daughter I got something to say to you
and it might be not the word you want to hear
Your mother and I are running out of space for all our stuffs
and there is only one place to put the thing that we both hold so dear
We’re turning your bedroom back into the computer room
We’re turning your bedroom back into the computer room
And it makes good sense since its only way
You can sleep out on the couch till you found a place
Or maybe you can lives on my sister's house
She always like you better anyway
We’re turning your bedroom back into the computer room (baby)
We’re turning your bedroom back into the computer room
Whatever you think you need to do we will pack your bag and with the xxx
And remember just stay out of that room

Paula Cole - I Don't Want To Wait

Lady Gaga is objectively uninteresting

The thing about music is that - as with any artistic expression - there are levels to it. It's possible for expression to be sophisticated or original or to deal with more significant ideas, or express them in a more poetic way. Yes, these measures are subjective to an extent, but there's objective elements to them too.

Things like Lady Ga Ga aren't just about music, they're dependent on image and fashion too. Bands like radiohead tend to create fashion as a consequence; their music is significant and therefore things they do become fashionable. Lady GaGa works the other way as much as anything; her style and presence in the cultural consciousness dictates that attention is paid to her music.

Also you can see that what she produces is less an artistic expression than a corporate effort; extra songwriters, producers, management. It's not a pure expression. Plus whilst the hooks may be appealing, the structure of the music is easily derived back to various sources of inspiration. Radiohead, on the other hand deal with a diverse set of novel influences and ideas. They are as inflential as they are influenced.

Oh the good bar music of 70s