Stop worrying

I try to make friends first. I've been told women appreciate that more. I'm now starting to realize that this was a giant lie. Some men find really amazing girlfriends with whom they have fulfilling relationships. What qualities do those men have? There's a difference between growing up and changing yourself to please others.

Some things are just not visible by just looking at them. There are guys out there who are hopeless in almost every possible way who just happen to have a girlfriend. There is something about their approach or how they live that puts them on the "yes" list. It's not always obvious above things like gold diggers and conventionally handsome people.

I'm thinking more of strategies and ways to work towards relationships other than pumping weights at the gym or changing your entire personality. People want the opposite sexes to want them, not some guise that they put on. A lot of people (both skinny and fat, tall and short) seem to somehow get away with finding someone special. It's as if some major character flaw is hiding under our noses.

You are not your id. If you want girlfriend material, then you need to become boyfriend material. This may require some small changes, or even some big ones, but you will still be you. There is no need for disguises (indeed, disguises work against you in the end). But you do need to be willing to make some accommodations for the people around you.

Stop worrying so much about getting a girlfriend, it'll happen when it happens. That's not to say don't try, but don't be desperate either. There's getting your shit together, and then there's making everything you do a performance. I don't mean this in a "I'm perfect the way I am", but to make having a significant other means you're validated in the fact that someone likes you; working your ass off just for the attention of another human being is somewhat unrewarding and way too much work.

What is free will?

Free will is whatever you make it to be, or else you don't have free will. The ability to take in information and make a choice based on it. Then there is the understanding that nobody else around needs favors. There is the philosophical definition which is actually somewhat limiting to make a point.

Note that there is only ever going to be one possible outcome, but you still go through the process of coming to that outcome.

Aku Harus Jujur

If people were watching me on a screen it'd be like the Office, where half of the episode you are tensing the muscles in your chest going "oh my god".

Every week I look back at what I did and am appalled at some of the shit I did or said. Sometimes at the end of the day I ask myself how I could have been so stupid to do or say some things. And I'm right. I don't feel like a retard when I'm doing it, but when I reflect on it later, or I read what I wrote a week, a day, a few hours ago, I want to disappear.

I don't feel like I have no inhibitions, or even that I'm overly critical of myself. It's like I forget myself and become a pretentious asshole, or total buffoon, or worthless lump, for just a few moments, and that's all the time it takes to fuck up and reveal my stupid inner self to other people.

I'm very critical of everyone who doesn't seem 'genuine'. But I hate the things I do and say because I don't feel I have a unique personality. I'm not going to obliterate half of my brain with marijuana and living the rest of my life working at a Circle K. I have figured the self is something that must be forged (a new personality). Something people would love. Something that would make people happy. I'm jealous of people who can be themselves because I don't have much of a self. I must try to look forward. Beyond the pain of regretting the unwise choices I've made. I must make a new life. One I will be proud of.

Does anyone else feel like their life is an endless satire of itself? It's like we're a big cosmic joke..

Sucks to be you Bea-to-ri-cee: Magic doesn't exist

As I am getting older I also begin to see how silly twenty-somethings are; in fact its annoying because when I see them I see what I used to be, a pseudo-intellectual puffed up little pup who thinks they knew about the world just by reading a lot of news. Twenty-something agnostics are also very annoying, this was me as well, until I grew up a heart, brain, and a dick.

I've seen some idiots in my college who are anti-Israel and think they'll actually accomplish anything. The members are very full of themselves and think they know the solution to everything which they don't, one wants to implement direct democracy but doesn't realise how incredibly difficult that would be in practice. In my last year of college. The other people in my course are so diabolically stupid, even after 4 years of doing this shit, it's sapped my will to do the work and go to classes, because I figure, if they can get a degree, anyone can, what's the goddamn point?

Atheists know they dont know everything and without proof they will not just accept an idea as valid. Making claims about how everything came to be without any evidence is the game of religion. Atheists having 100% knowledge there is no god is a statement religious people and agnostic kids convince themselves of. Even Dawkins states that he doesnt have 100% knowledge the there is no god. The point to being an atheist is to demand proof for a claim, and if proof is not given, there is no reason to accept it. God is just as much mythological as any other creature ever made up by man, he deserves no exception, after all 99.9% of all the Gods that have ever supposedly existed are now extinct. We are all non believers in them, atheists just take it one god further

We have no reason to give unicorns the benefit of the doubt as we know that we created them through mythology and shit. We don't know why humans exist, we don't know why life exists but it does. Atheism does not answer all the questions, and if you think it does, there is no way you know for sure.

Its about burden of proof, if there is no evidence there is no reason to believe. I am sure we are both atheists about those unicorns and fairies, but there is just as much evidence for them as there is for god. I dont know if there is or isnt a god, but from all the evidence, it sure seems like there is no compelling case for one therefore I do not believe. If you are agnostic about God then you must be agnostic about everything else in the world that a person might claim to exist regardless of facts