Maybe because it was a big thing in 1960

So next week is graduation of my class. For me it looks like everyone is making such a big deal out of it. Like a celebration of some sort. Is it just me, or did graduating from college (especially undergrad and lower institutions) not feel like an accomplishment at all? Like what's the fucking big deal, everyone graduates sooner or later. Fuck, I don't even want attend my graduation.

Matter of fact, Bachelor's degree is just like a High School diploma these days. Well, it does mark an end to a significant portion of a person's life; namely, the decision to either stop learning, or become an expert in the field of your choice. I am attending the commencement just because my parents will be there. To be honestly going to the ceremony was more for my parents than me. All the same, I would have skipped it, but the parents came and wanted to see me walk, etc. Getting myself a PhD or Graduate from Med School or some shit and then I may not whining about celebration.

I'll just stick with my own style, being deep is tiring.

50th post. Wow, just when I was starting a bit pessimistic apparently I did reach the golden line.

I hope it is understandable when I say I feel overwhelmed by the series of events happening in this week. I feel like I am doing too much, yet nothing gets done. I have been listening to some old music again (just 90s music in general, but its kinda sound old now) and I have busy myself with paying the bills and fees for the house. Neither are therapeutic nor anywhere fun. Have I been very moody? No, certainly cannot count on that. Maybe having a lot things going on my mind that cause my lack of empathy for the Haiti problem (though without making senseless ruckus here, I'd say those Haitian people get their help mad easy). Fun comes in the form of something a lot more exciting lately (with a lot more expense than I can imagine) but by this weekend I will have another spot blank on my lover book. I guess it's better getting sucked up into somebody else's romantic mind games.

About getting back on track. My focus and energy should be on my personal fitness and health this year. When the school starts I will try finding some time between gym time for cardio exercise again, to conflicting classes and work. Well I just hope I dont get burn out and get sick instead. I only know a few approaches to see what works best (by reading solely from last year magazine). I am not afraid to fail during the process, only what usually happen is that I get bored myself; I hate it when that happens! The spanish language I am so excited to learn still takes its break-- I hope that it is still in my best interest. Glad, at least I already got through to half of the first chapter. And, gotta remind myself to check in with my programme again in February.